Bo Peep is at the rescue.

Hmm. Nothing really better. Well. Think about it.

Friend Hasnt Forgiven me.
Groups Falling Apart.
Half Of My Group Will Never Know My Side of The Story.
People are bullshitting about each other.

DumDeeDumDeeDum.

Damn. I feel so fucking back-stabbed.

From the following people:

-Friends
-More Friends
-Even More Friends.

Did i mention Friends?

Fuck This Shit. Fucking.
My mum saw me crying today.
Sh asked me what was wrong.
I said people from school were being mean.
Well, self explanatory isnt it?
She told me to end the friendships with them.
Perhaps that's what i shall do.

Fucking. I hate it when you're friends back-stab you.
&& When they dont notice that you're the one who needs help.

My mum was right.
She told me not to pour my soul out to people.
Unfortunately i did. && Now they back-stabbed me.

Perhaps I'm just selfish?
Selfish for wanting someone to love me && for me to love them in return.
Selfish for wanting to come home with someone to ask how my day was, and to live the experiances i had had that day.
Selfish for wanting someone ALWAYS there for me and comfort me when i'm low.
Selfish for wanting someone to understand what i'm going through and not just pretend they know everything.
Selfish for wanting to not exist.

Perhaps I am.

No it's not. 'It' being this my LJ. Damn i wanna kill it.
-fingers itch towards nearby knife to stab it-

-New Haircut. o.o" Eww!! So Fcking Short. Side fringe is ok.

-Dont know how to change any of this on LJ. o.o" Pfft -stab-

-Confused//Stressed about [i]stuff[/i]

-Finished SRP o.o"

-Bored, Snow tomoz [[friday]] till Sunday. O.o"

-Nothing to type about. o.o"


She's so sick of never bein beautiful enough,
never being stronger, or better.
She’s sick of going home everyday,
&& wishing she was someone else.
For once she wants to look in the mirror
&& be happy for what she sees back.
She's so sick of everyone telling her
"you can do so much better then that".
Maybe she can't?
She's sick of people bringing her down
& telling her that she isn't good enough.
But i guess all she really wants,
is to be more then 2nd best.

She's moved on now. && i feel sorry for you
cause she thought you were
the most amazing boy ever.
if she could have any guy
in the world,
she would have picked you
above all the others.
she thought you were different.
she was wrong. you're just
another guy to her now..
and now...she’s in love with another,
and you can't get her back..

wEEEEE!!

-Good Stuff~~~~
.No More Half Yearlies.
.JD coming up.
.The weather a[k]a Rain a[k]a FLOODED lowers.
.Holidays. Lots of them.

-Not-So-Good Stuff~~~
.Results for Maths: 81.5%.
.Results for Geo: A Lost Exam Paper.
.Results for Latin: 63.5%.
.Reports.
.The Weather//Good and Bad.
.Boredom of Life in General.

Hmm.

Loneliness is sitting her alone in the dark,
It's being forgotten, promises broken.
It's that hole in your heart left by a loss so huge, you cry.
It's being here. But here alone, without you.

Loneliness is remembering you,
Lost memories.
Seeing you for the last time.
Loneliness is forgetting you,
the d a r k n e s s
A hole in your heart
never to be healed
It's being here. But here alone, without you.

Hold on. Remember. Wish for you.
I wish I may, wish I might,
now you're gone, now I'm alone again,
now, I'm ok; now I understand.

Now I know.
God needed you more than I.

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Comment with your name, and...
01. I'll respond with something random about you.
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03. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
04. I'll tell you something I like about you.
05. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
06. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
08. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ.

Yay! Second LJ entry. ^^

Damn. I can't believe:
~I Missed FNL for the SECOND time.

~Our group is ACTUALLY falling apart

~My Birthday's next week. On wednesday.

~I havta play TWO games of hockey tomoz because the middle team doesnt have enough people. AND the games are right after each other. I'll be dead.
But at least less study time forced upon me. XDD

~I STILL have a certain stalker. DONT YOU DARE say anythiung mandy =]. X__X

~My CLASS group thing is falling apart too since the ending of Gangsta Four.

~Mr Hulme is moving us around. But me and Alex were quiet in Maths for the first time in AGES. Damn. All that hard work for nothing.

~I found all this stuff i never knew i had in my locker on Thursday. Like WOAH!! So much random crap in there.

~Half yearlies are the week AFTER my birthday, so probably havta STUDY on my birthday. X__X Pfft.

~SRP a[k]a Science Research Project to do.

Anyway, enough of stuff happening. Lolz just thinking what else to talk about? Everyone's starting to like 'Who Knew' Thanks to me!! XDD Lolz. ^^.

Quote [[Friday 19th May 2006. In HSIE, Bekka been sitting in front row because busted for talking and has her hand up]]

Mr Pretty: "Yes Rebecca?"
Bekka: "Can I sit in the Back row now? Because I think I've learnt my lesson."
Mr Pretty: *does spastic choking noise, splutters weirdly and holds his heart as if having a heart attack* My Heart!!
*Class cracks up laughing*

XDD. Hmm.

Have A Nice Day!!

<33 [[Lozz]]

Haha. How weird. Last Year [[not that long ago actually]], I was actually AGAINST LJ. But that was when i had my blogdrive so of COURSE i was against LK. Well here i am with my very own. How..*thinks of the word* hypocritical of myself. Oh well. =]. Mandy helped me fix everything up. So until i find out how to do it myself, its gonna be like this!! =] haha I'm obsessed with Tourniquet now. Happy bday Algae for tomoro!! XD =P

Channing Tatum is soo hot!! <33

Have a Nice Day!!

<33 [[Lozz]]


i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

i want to die!!!

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide